buddhagrrl interviews me

[mik3cap]

1. You won't really call it Fluffy, will you? What are your real top contenders for names for your new kitty?

When I get a sphynx, I'll call it Fluffy. The kitty I'll be adpoting from the shelter will be General Gao, or possibly General Tso or General Cho (shortened to Gao, Tso, or Cho). Or maybe Number 9 Orange Flavor Chicken.

2. What is your absolute favorite thing to eat?

Without a doubt this has to be pizza, and the best pizza comes from New Haven. Pizza is the perfect food. Cheese and chocolate are tied for second place.

3. What is your worst habitual pattern?

I've been developing some bad ones lately. It used to be that the worst habit I had was biting my nails, and no matter how many times I've tried to kick that one, I keep falling off the wagon.

My worst habit lately is that I find myself becoming a bit more neurotic after my negative health experiences a few months ago. I am constantly checking myself for weird symptoms, and every little thing is starting to worry me now. I'm hoping that a physical from the doctor will alleviate this, but I think part of it is just that I don't have anyone around to keep my mind from wandering into this black area.

I'm also starting to think that I've developed bad relationship habits, but I'm not sure. I've talked about this before... I'm still not certain if it's something I should change about myself or if I just need to find people that aren't bothered by it. Is it bad that I'm emotional in my relationships? It freaks out people that I want to be with, so maybe I should be pulling back on the throttle. But I don't know how to turn off how I feel. So that has been occupying my mind lately, whether I need to classify that as a "bad habit".

4. What's the best thing about this move?

I feel very free. This is really the first time I've ever been totally cut off and on my own. I mean, I've been living on my own finances since 1998, but now I'm starting from scratch in a decent apartment in a cool place with what is basically my first "real" job. There are a lot of downsides to it, but the excitement of it is the best thing about it. Because of this move, the future looks very bright.

5. How do you see the dynamics of your social attachments being different or the same ten years from now?

I really don't have a clue. I'm hoping that some day I'll find a companion and start a family, and I expect that dynamic will change things for me the way it's changing things for a lot of my friends today. Other than that, I wouldn't dare to imagine how things will be different for me. I never could have predicted where I'd be at 30 when I was 20, so I won't even try now.

I'll always be a gamer and will want to do gamer things. So I'm sure I'll keep moving in those circles. I think that the longer I stay on the Cape, the more older and younger friends I am going to make (as there seem to be very few people in their early 30s here). My work contacts are definitely getting built up a lot - I think I'm eventually going to get sucked into the jet setting lifestyle associated with working for the Fortune 500. I'm not sure how to feel about that yet either.

And then there are people that will always be a part of my life, and those people know who they are without me having to say anything.